Not following your dreams would be much more tragic than trying and failing.- Unknown I was up late last night with this deep nagging itch, a recurring itch I've had since a year into motherhood. In the past it has been on and off and dull but this year it has been strong and very … Continue reading The Journey Begins….
October 5th 2015 The babies are now 16 weeks old. We had an ultrasound when they we're 14 weeks old and they are handsome (because I think they're boys) But everything is not fine, they have something called twin to twin transfusion syndrome (TTTS). There is a vessel that instead of sending fluid wherever fluid … Continue reading Mommy diary series #3
Entry #2 August, 25th 2015 I'm bad at this journaling, thing we found out that I am having twins! Braiden calls them his chili beans. He is so excited and proud to show the sonogram to everyone who will let him. Sibling love, I never got it but I am loving seeing it through my … Continue reading Mommy diary series #2
My first journal entry pertaining to motherhood, here we go word per word..... ** Aside from me fixing Grammer and making it flow better for blog purposes and not a journal where your mind gets ahead of your hand sometimes** June, 7th 2015 So almost everything with buying our house is done. The inspection is … Continue reading Mommy diary series #1
I've had this post sitting in my drafts for a weeks maybe months now. This is going to be something hard for me, I know some days I'll want to back out and go back to my comfort zone. I know once I publish this post there's no going back I'll have to stick to … Continue reading I’m procrastinating
So much to do so little time, I sit here rocking my youngest child, my last one. She will be a year in less than 20 days. I sit here wondering where has the time gone? Feeling as though I never truly enveloped myself in these small moments of rocking my babies to sleep. I … Continue reading Being present
Today has been hard, I had all of your small daily stay at home mom duties such making sure the house was in order, cooking, changing diapers, potty training and cleaning faces. But in addition to that I have been needing to sweep and mop the entire house, clean the kitchen cabinets that are splashed … Continue reading I failed motherhood today.
It's been a while, and ohhhh how my soul has missed writing. This blog birthed from a meme about spilt breast milk (or boob milk). I seen this while doing my nightly Facebook scroll in bed. I thought "ha! So much truth" then I started to think about the times I had spilt or wasted … Continue reading Spilled milk
On days like today I cant stand being a mom. I hate all my kids, I hate motherhood and I don't want them right now.When all I want to do is cook an actual freaking real meal you know that thing with REAL meat not frozen throw in the oven stuff. But while I'm trying … Continue reading Diary of an angry mom: on days like this..
The tension built up, the "mom mom mom" and "look look look". The cries, the screaming, the fighting, the climbing all over me. I tried to hold it all in I tried to fend off the explosion inside but I couldn't hold it at Bay anymore one last "mom mom mom" did it. I jumped … Continue reading I’M LEAVING.
The devil attacks my mind daily, your not good enough, you could do things better, your the worst mother, your screwing up all your kids, they would be better off if you just ran away, your a terrible wife, you don't love your husband good enough, your a terrible person. It's a constant battle of … Continue reading The devil and his mind games.
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